Feeling excerified

I don’t usually do mid-week posts but here we are.

I can’t lie, there are parts of me that feel absolutely terrified about doing the London Marathon. In fact even when I just think about the day I get nervous.

Back in 2014 when I did my first ever half marathon I was so nervous I threw up 4 times before getting to the start line. Stu said it was a stupid thing to do as all my hydrating would have gone out the window, he’s definitely right but I just couldn’t control the feelings.

Recently I’ve been reading a few books to keep me inspired to get out running. One of them was Vassos Alexander’s book Don’t Stop Me Now (A great, funny and inspiring book) the other I’ve only just started is called Keep On Running: The Lows and the Highs of a Marathon Addict by Phil Hewitt.

Both books discuss the London Marathon, and when I read it I get these butterflies in my stomach and when they tell me about crossing the line I feel like I’m about to well up and cry as I read it on the tube. Why? I don’t know.

I have no doubt there will be tears on the day and I imagine my stomach will be doing somersaults for most of the night and morning before we begin.

There is definitely excitement in there as well but both terrified and excitement co-exists together; excerified.

The thing is running is so mental, so even though I can do all the training needed I don’t know if on the day my head will take me all the way?

And people keep mentioning what can only be described as the ‘wall of doom’. The wall you hit when you have nothing left to give. It doesn’t sound nice at all. If I hit the wall will I have enough to keep going? Will I hit the wall? If I do I hope it’s at least past 20miles.

I haven’t been so scared about anything in such a long time. I’ve publicly announced I’m doing the London Marathon, Headway are counting on me, friends and family have sponsored me. The only person who can achieve this is me, I am relying only on myself to get this done.

ARRGGHH.

I want to do Headway and my family and friends proud, but I also want to be proud of myself. And I really want to cross that finish line and feel all types of joy that I’ve heard people describe after finishing a marathon.

I am totally excerified but I’ve just got to keep putting in the hard work and keep going.

I can’t wait for it…but I also can.


I’m running the London Marathon to raise money for Headway, the brain injury association. You can sponsor me here: uk.virginmoneygiving.com/SiobhanSharp

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Quarter Way Through: Week 4

This week I have been shattered! It’s been hard.

With either work, training and one night of catching up with friends my week nights were full every day this week and hadn’t been in bed before 10.30pm all week! By Friday I was exhausted.

 

I hadn’t felt so sleepy in such a long time. As Saturday came I slept in till 10am and spent the day relaxing on the sofa with Stu. It was much needed.

As it happens my long run this week was only 6 miles. I guess there is an element of tiredness that happens anyways from four weeks non-stop training, but I also imagine a busy schedule and a lot on my plate (both at work and not eating properly) doesn’t particularly help the cause either. So on Sunday I decided another lie in was needed and I didn’t go running until the evening.

I think maybe the world punished me for my laziness as by the time I went out it was POURING with rain. But only 6 miles to go so out I went. Within seconds I was soaked through.

As I was running I thought rather than letting this week defeat me I’d use the rain to wash away the week. Half way through I started pushing a little harder and in the end I managed 10km in 56min 39 secs – which for a tired Siobhan I thought was pretty good.  Week Four is now over and onto the next.

Next Sunday I have 14 miles to run so I guess it’s going to have get some early nights in, eat well and look after myself to make it.

So until then,

Siobhan xx


I’m running the London Marathon to raise money for Headway, the brain injury association. You can sponsor me here: uk.virginmoneygiving.com/SiobhanSharp

To find out more about Headway and what they do visit their website here. 

When the going gets tough: Week 3

It’s been a bit of an odd one this week, it’s week three and it’s suddenly hit me how much commitment this is all going to take.

I run on Tuesdays, Thursdays, Fridays and Sundays which means I run at least every other day and have already covered 68 miles this year. It’s starting to feel like it’s all I’m doing (and that I’m becoming an extremely boring person just talking about running all the time). I am going to be continuing to do this for the next 13 weeks – sorry friends and family.

I’m still getting fitter, getting better at running and enjoying my runs so it’s not that I want to stop however the reality of the task has definitely set in.

I think that if I would give anyone else who is doing their first marathon, or half marathon, advice it would be don’t run alone. I am so pleased that I joined Ranelagh Harriers as without them I think this journey would be really hard.

Running with other people spurs you on, they’ll notice if you’re not there or when your flagging during training you have a someone to boost your energy saying ‘well done’ or ‘keep going you can do it’.

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Teddington Lock looked amazing on my Sunday long run at about 7.30am


It also allows me to then enjoy my long runs more as I don’t mind being on my own once or twice a week. I get to see some amazing things on my route and also get that time to just think and clear my mind.

I have no doubt that I am going to continue, I am determined and willing to put in the hard work. People have put their faith in me already sponsoring me and supporting me…

But they do say when the going gets tough the tough get going…so I guess here I go.

Until next week,

Siobhan x

I’m running the London Marathon to raise money for Headway, the brain injury association. You can sponsor me here: uk.virginmoneygiving.com/SiobhanSharp

Whatever the Weather: Week 2

“It’s snowing” shouts Lyndel to the office. “Ugh. Great.” I say to myself. It’s Thursday night and having already completed RC (running club) on Tuesday it’s time for my RC track session tonight.

It’s going to be icy, cold and there will be snow…SNOW. But I’m boosted by an earlier #thankyouthursday tweet I received from @Headway_UK earlier today, so I get changed in the office toilets and get ready to go.

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New leggings 

Once I’m changed I’m feeling in even better spirits, my new Sweaty Betty leggings (thanks Dad) make me feel like a cross between the Jamaican Bobsled team in Cool Runnings and Buzz Lightyear. It tickles me and I’m now ready for tonight.

 

 

“Feel the Rhythm. Feel the Rhyme. Get on up, it’s track running time…COOL LEGGINGS”

The session ended up going really well, cut a little shorter because of the conditions but great. I’m getting faster times and even though it’s not about speed it feels good. Yay.

Onto Friday morning and the temperatures are once again frosty. I wake up and the house is so cold, the gas money has run out and there’s no heating on – damn it!

Running on a freezing morning is awful to begin with. Getting out of bed is the really hard bit, although having a good reason to get up makes it easier (and running a marathon to raise money for Headway is a good motivator). Once you’ve braved removing your PJs to put your running clothes on you face the next challenge: leaving the house.

Lazy Siobhan’s like “Are you mad girl? You crazy!” But Let’s Do This Siobhan takes over and we’re out of the door. (I like LDT Siobhan – she’s sassy.)

It’s only 4 miles and as I ran the sun was coming up, I was wearing my gloves today and started to feel a bit like Rocky…not even sure how I made that connection but it was set in my mind and for the next mile (and the rest of the day Friday) the Rocky theme tune played over in my head.

Before 7.45am I’d complete my run, put money on the gas and bought some toothpaste. I felt like I’d cheated the day already achieving so much before it had begun.

As Sunday rolled along it was time for 9 miles and (after a wash) I rocked the Buzz Marley’s again from Thursday. It was raining the whole way but it feel refreshing and not too cold – it’s the perfect way to wake you up. The only issue was I was running next to the river and at one point it was so slippy and muddy I had to slow right down.

I generally felt stronger on this run, I think the mid-week training with speed and intervals is really helping and I’m hoping that I will continue to build on this. I ended on 9.5 miles in 1hr 31mins and 28 seconds and feel pretty good.

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Muddy feet after my 9.5 mile run

After stretching and some foam rolling (ouch) it’s now 10.15am and time for some dippy eggs. Now the rest of the day can begin.

Until next week…

Siobhan x


I’m running the London Marathon to raise money for Headway, the brain injury association. You can sponsor me here: uk.virginmoneygiving.com/SiobhanSharp

To find out more about Headway and what they do visit their website here. 

 

Off to a flying start: Week One

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After my final run of the week

It’s Tuesday night and I’m at Ranelagh Harriers running club ready for my first run in the lead up to my London Marathon.

It’s FREEZING but I’m all wrapped up with my new stylish Sweaty Betty head band (Running Christmas Gift #1 – Thanks Katie!) and Nike long sleeved top (Running Christmas Gift #2 – Thanks Dad).

Tonight we’re working on improving speed with 5 laps around the roads of Richmond (the houses around here are immense!). For the first lap we run at easy speed, then 9 min mile pace, then 8 min, then as fast as we can then back to 9.

Being with the other people in the group is making me push myself a bit more and one of the things that I think will be really great about being in the club. After all the laps and pushing myself more than I ever would running alone I’m back at the running club and I’m buzzing. What a great first run of the plan and of 2017!

The next session of the week is Thursday and after the great session with Ranelagh on Tuesday I have decided that I’m going to try out their track sessions at Osterley. I turn up at the sports ground around 7.20pm, get changed and head out to the track – it’s already starting the freeze! Eek!

The club have organised specific marathons track training and tonight’s plan is to run 5 reps of one 4min 800 meters and a recovery 400 meters also at 4 mins (this for my level). The floor is a little slippy from the frost and the 800 meters are tough, I’m pushing hard and I can surely feel it, the recovery lap can’t come quicker. Although weirdly at the same time I’m kind of enjoying the feeling of running so hard.

As I come to the end and stop my watch I can’t quite believe my eyes…’NEW PERSONAL RECORD: 5KM 26.06′.

What?! 26.06?!!?

How on earth did I do that? Usually I find it hard to get to 28 and I’ve managed to shave 2 minutes off. As I walk back to the train station I’m feeling really proud of myself and can’t quite believe it’s week one and I’ve already achieved a PB!

It’s 6.30am on Friday. The alarm rings and that means it’s time to get up and go out for an easy 3 mile. I roll out of bed and as I look out of the window it’s frosty – but luckily not as frosty as it was yesterday. I lace up the trainers and head out. It’s not far and as I’m running I think of the night before and am still feeling pretty pleased.

Finally, the last session of the week. It’s Sunday and it’s long run day today – 8 miles.

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My 8 mile route

As I’ll be out the longest today I’ve decided to put on my new and beautiful Sweaty Betty leggings (Running Christmas Gift #3 – Thanks again Dad) to look super cool as I run the Whitton/Twickenham/Teddington route.

Starting off it’s dark as it’s only 7am and it’s also a little wet but the temperature is a lot better than it’s been the rest of the week. I might not even need all these layers!

As I get to mile 4 I think it’s amazing how nice it is this early in the morning, so peaceful and barely anyone around.

Before I know it the miles have flown by and I’m approaching the High Street finish. And with the stop of my watch week one is over!

21.4 miles down and overall it’s been a great start. Hopefully onwards and upwards…until next week.

Siobhan x


I’m running the London Marathon to raise money for Headway, the brain injury association. You can sponsor me here: uk.virginmoneygiving.com/SiobhanSharp

To find out more about Headway and what they do visit their website here.